History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi AMV [Jesus Beats - Shigure Kosaka] Hip Hop

golden like an egg



crisp like christmas



jesus beats infinite



soul reaper affinity





kenichi amv i eat



myself reluctantly



like the taste of



sour aloneness



 my mind is trapped

in a  vortex

ill never escape

and ill never escape



not escaping









ULTRA NOTHING  HOUSE

Dragon Ball Z「AMV」So Far Away [HD]

ARIA The AVVENIRE 本予告

loneliness isolation depression and staying inside

loneliness isolation depression and staying inside

been staying inside as much as i can because time with my thoughts is the only time that makes sense anymore. mostly i feel like things are conspiring against me and for me at the same time. not sure what the best way to deal with myself is but i have been using more of myself. as well as music from anime and video games. been watching a good amount of hunter x hunter.

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sometimes cartoons and animations are the only things i have to hang out with. that's okay though because normally they are pretty attentive and enjoyable to spend time with. unlike people, who will make you feel more lonely sometimes as time goes on and who cultivate isolation on a daily basis. i pass people every day on the subway and on the bus and no one looks at each other. no one talks about what books they are reading, what games they are playing on their phones, what they are going to do when they go back home, or what they wanted to be as a child.

we're an isolated depressed society and we lack ways to express the things we feel. sometimes it feels like the best thing to do is stay inside. sometimes it feels like the worst thing to do is stay inside. as a human we will never have the right answers, we will always be plagued with confusion and obsolescence.

shoutout to the guys over at IA for the inspiration-- the straight loneliness blog resource.

isolated and alone watching Gotenks vs Vegito

thinking about gotenks in a puddle of my own nothingness feeling ultra isolated fucked up and depressed thats really all i wanted to say but hey its a blog so ill tell u about my day it consisted of a lot of nothingness and pure fuckery. just chilling

loneliness blog

if a possum was a bird sign, what would it mean

i love the sound of ice crackling inside a beverage

a poem conscientuous of itself

is life one continuous poem

where did the possum think he was, not

in the sky like a bird, in garbages rather, alleyways and backyard

the fun thing about poems is that you never know when the turn is going to come

as god speaks it is written

he is simultaneous creator and audience

upon discerning the raccoon was a bad sign

i decided to eat a bowl of sphagetti with a cold beverage on the side

the sound of the ice reminded me of a poem

my vote would be that life is a poem before a scientific specimen

but i’ve been known to mess up signs before

i say im writing poetry but really im just thinking fucked up thoughts

browsing through my own loneliness

the opossum was a good sign

gly, rumaging, and running away

like a big cat, almost cuddley

i’m sure it is happy with what it finds in the trash

food, toys, broken pieces of self

his violent seeming playfulness

was telling me about my depression

about darkness when it arrives in a playful form

as when evil takes the shape of something beautiful

life is a poem so it must consist of both good and evil, god and no god

the poem is conscious of it self, the raccoon is just dark and its hair knotted

it finds your trash by nature, not accident

it runs away for a second, then comes back, shining like the absence of day

you kneel, look at its face you feel bad about thinking it was ugly

you move closer, it looks at you, and runs away

and you're left alone thinking about how you did too much

not realizing the sign not realizing how acquainted with darkness you have become

a sign of the darkness within yourself

and you check the alleyway

you check by the sidewalk, you do not check yourself

you think the sign means not to be afraid

while thinking hateful thoughts


loneliness blog 

lonliness and depression due to screen addiction

interNET

content making constellations

can’t make out the picture

can’t make out the meaning

looking mechanically

like a telescope zooming

in and out unable to see

the bigger picture

each blinking advertisement

off text, video, image, idea

is a star winking at me

and i can almost become it 

by allowing it into me

i telescope myself

until my eyes blur

when i position myself away

my hollow body yearns

to be filled with the infinite

space, wants to feel it

going through. my brain 

is electric but is no match

for the internet, it will become you

if you look at it long enough